north fork, october 


If you’re John Muir you want trees to live among.
If you’re Emily, a garden will do.
Try to find the right place for yourself.
If you can’t find it, at least dream of it.

When one is alone and lonely, the body
gladly lingers in the wind or the rain,
or splashes into the cold river, or
pushes through the ice-crusted snow.

Anything that touches.

God, or the gods, are invisible, quite
understandable. But holiness is visible,
entirely.

Some words will never leave God’s mouth,
no matter how hard you listen.

In all the works of Beethoven, you will
not find a single lie.

All important ideas must include the trees, the mountains, and the rivers.

To understand many things you must reach out
of your own condition.

For how many years did I wander slowly
through the forest. What wonder and
glory I would have missed had I ever been
in a hurry!

Beauty can both shout and whisper, and still
it explains nothing.

The point is, you’re you, and that’s for keeps.

Leaves and Blossoms Along the Way, Mary Oliver

 

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kinship

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“Because we have forgotten our kinship with the land,” she continued, “our kinship with each other has become pale. We shy away from accountability and involvement. We choose to be occupied which is quite different from being engaged.” (from Refuge, Terry Tempest Williams)

photos taken at Glacier National Park, mid September

 

on being a woman alone in the wild

When I have a day off, I do my very best to wake early and hightail it to the mountains- Glacier, the Jewel, Whitefish Range, where ever seems appealing that day given weather and time. I value these days apart so much, especially when they feel few and far between. I have spent hundreds of hours out in the woods in Montana and have hiked hundreds of miles over these past two years which I consider such a gift of living here. Sometimes I hike with a crew or a partner, and love those hours of conversation or comfortable silence as we push our bodies up and over mountain tops, but sometimes I hike alone- just me, my bear spray & those big mountains.

Gale over at She-Explores recently put out a question to listeners of her podcast- do you enjoy hiking, camping and/or backpacking solo? At what age did you start hiking, camping, and/or backpacking solo? Did it feel natural or did it take you time to get used to it? What are the benefits of taking on solo challenges in the wild? What are the risks?

Today, I started out to hike to Granite Park Chalet after my hopes of hiking Swiftcurrent Lookout this week were dashed by snow. The first snow hit Glacier earlier this week and the peaks are coated in white, fading below treeline to the speckled yellow and red of early autumn. I started out at the Loop, with a light mist falling, cold, but not enough to bother me. I hiked up the switchbacks and watched in wonder as the clouds shifted, catching glimpses of the freshly capped peaks. After about 2 and 1/2 miles a couple stopped me on the trail, sharing that they had run into a bear and 2 cubs, on the trail about 1/4 mile from us. They noted that the bear wasn’t moving and that she wasn’t pleased with their attempts to get her to move on. I nodded, heard them say that there were other people in front of them, and headed forward; often, bears will move on quickly and the trail will clear. Shortly after, 3 other groups of hikers passed me the other way, all noting that the bears were staying put and that they felt it was best to turn around. That, coupled with the increasing snow and the fact that I’ve done this particular hike before, factored into my decision to turn around.

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I don’t go to the mountains just to summit peaks or rack up mileage, I go because the woods are the place where I recenter.

The breeze lifting the leaves toward the sky- a warning of weather to come.
The way water makes it’s way through the smallest cracks in the rock- modeling perseverance and patience.
How vibrantly trees give up their leaves in autumn- a brilliant lesson in resiliency.

All of it teaching me, helping me remember what’s important in this life, renewing my spirit after long days of work and humbling me in perspective. Wilderness does not exist for us, but in spite of us.  It is an immense gift to be able to experience it, a gift of which I will never tire.

Being alone in the woods doesn’t scare me. I am deeply aware of the inherent risks that come with walking alone through grizzly country or walking a ridge line solo, but I manage them with experience, like today, when turning around when it seemed the best practice. My parents taught me from an early age how to rely on myself, with the proper preparation and awareness of my surroundings. For me, being alone in the woods is empowering and soul centering.

However, I constantly experience secondhand concern about my hiking alone.

“Are you sure you’re alright?”

“Don’t end up like one of those stories you hear on the news…”

“I don’t understand why a pretty girl like you lives in the woods alone.”

& my favorite, slightly threatening comment-

“Does your father know you’re out here alone? What would he think?”
(for the record, my father taught me how to be alone in the woods)

I’ve heard these comments on summits and at trailheads, at my place of work (which also happens to be my home), in the middle of crowded chalets in casual conversation with other hikers. It is almost always men questioning me, while their hiking partners are quiet in the background. I understand that many of these comments are out of genuine concern, but I have never heard anyone question a man hiking alone in the same way. Unfortunately, our society spends a lot of time editing what women can and cannot do, alone or otherwise.

I appreciate the way that hikers and backpackers look out for one another, and I am always, always happy to chat with fellow hikers, but I am careful to question anyone’s motives- each of us has our own story, our own path leading us to this one. Warn me of the bear ahead, ask me how I’m doing, tell me good luck, but please, don’t assume that my solo womanhood is inherently dangerous.

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Women can do anything. ANYTHING. This is a truth I have been taught my whole life, from my badass paramedic/ camp director mama, from my incredible, creative camp counselors, from my brilliant professors and supportive friends. I am so grateful to be surrounded by truth telling, compassionate, courageous and loving women and hope so much to inspire others to be the same. We are out there, millions of us, hiking alone and enjoying the woods or city streets or suburban parks. Thank you to all the women who go and have gone alone, for inspiring me.

If you want to be alone in the woods, do your research, understand the risks and get out there, regardless of gender. And if you don’t want to go solo, find a friend! I really encourage other women to try a hike alone, to allow yourself to be immersed in the quiet of the woods, to feel the power of your own body as you traverse across the land, to allow your instincts to keep you safe. I would love to hear other women’s experiences with hiking alone!

There is so much to see in this big world, and I don’t want to miss any of it.

Be brave, y’all; wild is within you.

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ginny in the mountains

sister visits are the best.

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Thanks for hiking up mountains with me, taking beautiful photos and picking good music. So glad you could be here! I’m so proud of you & all you’ve accomplished this past year- love you, g.

green river, ut

my heart is so full after a weekend in the desert, visiting Ginny in her spring home. 

 

Green River is a town of less than 1,000, a tiny blip on the map. Most known for it’s melon harvest, it has little industry to speak of, and is generally struggling. Ginny is working with PACT, the community foundation, in their after school program. She’ll be there until the end of May, helping facilitate programming and develop curriculums and guidelines for the program’s future. 

The little community that PACT and Epicenter staff have formed was so welcoming and fun; it was just the weekend I needed. Thankful for sunsets, truck stop karaoke, dance parties, desert hikes, 10am slurpees, endless canyons, beach days and so much laughter. 

  

 

 

 

 

 

Ginny & Mary both inspire me every day with their passion, creativity and fierce dedication to bringing about good in the world. Loved being with them in their little town. 

from the road

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“What is that feeling when you’re driving away from people and they recede on the plain till you see their specks dispersing? – it’s the too-huge world vaulting us, and it’s good-bye. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies.”
–Jack Kerouac

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I love that bit of Kerouac (even though I don’t particularly like him as a person). Our leaning forward toward the “next crazy venture” began just over a month ago.

Driving cross country felt like a long, tiring dream. Day after day spent under the sky, watching the land spread out in front of us. We passed windmills, sunflower fields, the tiniest towns and the biggest cities.Each night brought us to a new place, with people to learn from and sunsets to see.

I believe deeply that this country is best experienced from the ground. If we had more time, G & I would have rather taken back roads, but our 90West road trip still provided some beautiful insight into American life. Stop in small towns, eat on the ground, play the best music & stop to take photos; the journey is always worth it.

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go west, young woman.

I have some pretty big news to share, friends… I’m moving to Montana!

In my post LVC job hunt, I decided to apply to many positions in DC, Baltimore and some around the country. I searched the Lutheran Outdoor Ministry network and applied for two jobs at Lutheran camp and retreat centers. I was looking for jobs where I could use my facilitation skills to return to my first love: outdoor ministry. Having lived in the DMV area my whole life, I was also excited to look for jobs in a different area of the country, preferably with big mountains!

I am so excited to start my next adventure in life with Flathead Lutheran Camp and Retreat Center, near Kalispell, Montana. I will be the Retreat Coordinator, working as a host, guide and facilitator for their 6000+ retreat guests. I will live on the camp grounds, in a cottage overlooking Flathead Lake! Many other staff members live on the grounds, so I will not be alone during the Montana winter, which is a huge plus. I am so excited to meet all these new people, experience life in Big Sky country and help others embrace this beautiful world we’ve been given. LVC and MLR have given me so many gifts for this work, and I can’t wait to use them and grow in myself as a young adult.

Ginny & I will be driving cross country starting September 4th- she will get to see the camp and nearby Glacier National Park before flying back to MD. We are pumped to see the country in this slower sort of way.

I am so looking forward to this new step in my life and am so thankful for all the people who have supported me in making this decision. Come visit! I will post my new address when I know it.

much love,

kyle

 

ROAD TRIP READY!

rocky gap days.

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When I was young, my family used to pack up the mini-van, or Suburban (as the years went on), and make our way into the mountains to Rocky Gap State Park. RGSP is beautifully set on the banks of Lake Habeeb, near Cumberland, Maryland. We packed bikes and the canoe, s’mores fixings and fleece jackets and set up camp for a few days. I have the best memories of swimming in the lake, canoeing to “secret coves”, cooking over the fire and watching star shows in the field near the site. We took friends up for time in the woods- always building forts in the woods while our parents relaxed by the fire. My father once lost our car keys in the lake when they fell out of his bathing suit pocket, so of course, we have lots of funny stories from this place of beauty as well.

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To return to a place so full of memories as an adult holds a special kind of nostalgia. I was so grateful for time apart last week- time to sleep in, to cook and eat together, to brighten my hair under the August sun, to laugh with dear friends on the shores of the lake, watching the sun sink into the distance.

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The five of us are very soon headed in very different directions, so it was a huge blessing to spend time together in a place where our phones were quickly forgotten in the car and the skies reached out in all directions. We hiked through the “gorge” and splashed in the waterfall at the base of the dam. We saw deer and foxes, and shivered our way through hours in the cool lake water.

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There is always time to be busy- remember to take time apart. Shout to the sunset, skip stones til your fingers are sore, run your fingers through the sands of a lake, laugh in the firelight, and always stop for Sheetz at the end of any adventure.

Thank you to these sweet friends for always making time for one another.

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A Birthday Hike

Whenever I find myself at home for awhile, my favorite activity is to get out into the woods I hold so dearly. My parents taught my sister and I to appreciate the Earth by getting out into it and taking care to notice it’s beauty. My father and I drove to a little known access point in northern Washington County to hike the Thurston Griggs trail to the MD section of the Appalachian Trail. The weather was surprisingly cool for late July which certainly helped us in the mile long trek up the mountain to the main trail.

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I have always found solace in the mountains. I am thankful for the quiet, the warmth of sun through the trees and the cliff faces that give way to beautiful views. This section of the AT is calm and relatively easy as it bridges the mountain tops of Maryland.

I often feel most at peace when I am using my body to it’s fullest potential- climbing over rocks and feeling bark beneath my fingers. I am so thankful to have grown up near such beautiful places!

 

(The view pictured here is looking southwest from Blackrock Outlook.)